Warning: Vent! (Trigger Warnings: None)

I have all this creative energy inside of me, but I don't know how to release it. I want to write blog posts, poems, and stories. I want to do art journal pages. I want to code things for this website. I want to play solo rpgs. But it either isn't fun when I go to do it, or I just straight up don't know what to do. Like for this website. I REALLY want to code right now. I have no clue what to add, though. I feel so creative, but at the same time I'm the most uncreative person ever. How do you come up with ideas? I see the appeal of AI, it's an instant idea generator. I refuse to stoop that low, though.

I've scoured the internet for ideas for this website, but it's all professional website ideas. There's like, two posts online for fun website ideas. This is not and never will be a professional website, it's just me fucking around. I want fun fucking around ideas. I was thinking maybe a page for OCs, but honestly what would I even put on there? I don't feel like setting up a copycat Toyhouse.

So what do I even do here? I desperately want to do something creative, but my brain doesn't ever give me ideas. I miss being so creative when I was younger. As I've gotten older I've gotten less creative. It sucks, cause I still feel that drive to make things. I just don't know what to make. Maybe I outsourced ideas to the internet too much. Now my brain doesn't know how to be creative anymore. I hate it. How do I get it back? Probably just by training myself to come up with ideas, but god that is SO FUCKING HARD. I just want to have ideas again, why does it have to be so difficult?